Thursday, July 28, 2011

Experience

Today I had a conversation with a good friend; we were discussing life and how individuals will pray for inspiration, looking for answers to what they should do. I am convinced we can and do receive spiritual promptings from whatever spiritual guidance one believes in. The question is, when we seek guidance and we do what we think is inspired, how come our experience is not always what we thought it would be?

I think the answer is in the question. If we follow our spiritual promptings as closely as possible, they are always the way things are supposed to be. It is not our desire that drives our lives but our Father's desires for us. Sometimes I think it is not the specific circumstances we are to do but the experience of what we do and the results or repercussions that he desires for us.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

  Sarah’s Home
By
Bob Conder

     Some people swore that the house was haunted. The years of neglect and the occasional vandalous abuse by scared children or bored adults, would help give the impression of evil or at the least a haven for those who do evil deeds. Broken windows, overgrown shrubbery, dying fruit trees, and a high-backed weathered rocking chair strangely placed upon the porch waiting to give comfort and ease to someone, all added to the dark mood.
  
     Sarah, a long slender figure dressed in a heavy coat to fight the chill, stood admiring the finely scalped wood trim that separated the falling eves and the rippled shingles. A few nails, some paint, and flowered, yes flowered curtains could give life to this house of shattered souls.
  
       Although her own past had dark times she regretted, to many could’ve, woulda, should'ves, a sordid past with moments that could have added to this sorrowed landscape. Perhaps, just maybe, this single house could help her heal and give the world something positive to judge her by. But why was she worrying about them again. Her past loomed on her shoulders and perhaps added to the roundness they now had. As a young girl she would watch as her older brother, Benjamin and his friends, would torture and kill birds, cats, and any other small animals they could get their hands on. What was it she saw in their eyes, their acts, and their hearts, which she found so intriguing?
  
     Tulips, daisies, and roses, that’s what this yard needs. If there is any life left in the fruit trees they would add beauty in the spring with their colorful blossoms and sweet fragrance, and preserves in the fall to tantalize the taste buds.
  
     Sarah now stood on the porch admiring the doorknob, a tarnished finely detailed brass lever probably handmade by an old artisan. She gently took hold of the knob and easily turned it, the door swung open with the expected creeks and groans. The oak wood floor looked solid, the large rag-tied carpet dim with dust, and the furniture unmoved for years looked somehow new compared to the outer appearance.
    
    In the kitchen plates, silverware, and blue tumblers were on the table, as though waiting for the family to sit and enjoy mother’s Sunday roast. Even napkins were folded and carefully placed with the silverware. The smell of a thanksgiving feast with fresh potato rolls, would be a pleasant addition, and fresh flowers oh lots of fresh flowers to color the scene.
  
     Sarah had longed for a home she could call her own, a place to care for, to clean and beautify. A home with a strong family, lots of children, and friends, yes friends to sit on the porch and drink tea with. Friends with hobbies they loved and husbands to gossip about.
  
     It would be dark soon, and with no electricity or even a  flashlight, the house would be scary once again. Funny she thought how darkness means danger. Undaunted, Sarah found the stairs and surveyed the bedrooms finding her new bathroom with rose flowered wallpaper. What a wonderful place!
  
     The sound of a dog and the laughter from mischievous boys awoke Sarah from her thoughts. She stood in the shadows of the upstairs window watching as they approached. Sarah remembered the pain evil deeds leave behind. It will stop now.
 
      As the boys approached the house, rocks, slingshots and destruction in hand, Sarah ran down the stairs across the dusty rugs and creaking floors, finding the door still open she rushed into the yard to face the evil doers.
 
      Some say the screams could be heard all the way to Tower Street a full mile away. Others heard the laughter of Sarah as she watched the boys run, scared to death by the tall ghost with a flowing coat, coming out of the house, boys tripping over each other trying to save themselves, trying to find the gate first and escape the certain agonizing death.
  
     With paint, nails, and time, Sarah changed the house into a home, found a husband and started a family. Friends, lots of friends came drinking tea and gossiped as she sat in the high-backed rocker. Her good deeds erased the past, and three scared boys earned money mowing lawns, trimming trees, and planting her tulips.

    Sarah had been a stranger when she came to our town, she taught us all how to be a loving neighbor, to find the light in the darkness. Thanks to her kindness and the beauty it brings we transformed all the homes in our town, one house at a time. Nothing was ever the same again after that.

THE END

Time for Watching

Time for Watching
By
Bob Conder

Approaching the house brought back a flood of memories I didn’t expect. But then again what in life is expected?
    
     The Professor had been a sort of mentor to me. I loved going to his home and listening as he spoke, to no one in particular, about whatever it was he was working on. His writings were world renowned I had heard. Nevertheless in his office as he wrote and researched, and wrote some more, there was no other world.

     I don’t even remember how I met the Professor, I just remember being there from a very young age. It wasn’t until years later I realized he was watching me. Not like he would watch a research project trying to find the hidden secret, or even a baby sitter so mom could work. He watched me as I watched him work. Kind of a mutual watching society I guess.

     The Professor had a strange sense of humor he only knew two jokes and told those at the most inappropriate times. One was about a girl, a horse, and bag of tricks. Either I was to young or uneducated about it’s content, but I never understood it. For the other joke he would look around as though he was going to reveal the secrets of the universe, lean in close, and ask, “What do you get when you cross an elephant and a rhino?” With the anticipation of a four year old at Christmas time, he would wait for your reply. I would just shake my head and say, “I don’t know.” With a slight giggle he would answer, “Elephino, get it? Hell if I know?”  to which I would politely laugh.

     After a time he began to ask me to help research a subject and I would spend hours turning the pages, looking for clues, or information, or sometimes just names of bugs, plants, spiders, anything to make his green house better. I’m pretty sure my research was not about finding the answers or asking the questions. It was about our relationship.

     When high school came, along I spent less and less time with the Professor, not for any specific reason, I just found girls and sports and musicals and cars and other things to interest me. Yet every time I went into the library, I wondered what he was doing that day.

     As college came and quickly went, I seldom went home. Oh the holidays were good, but even they soon became a bother, then graduation, advanced degrees, marriage. All the things, which in reality are the thieves, we give our life to, the things that take us to where we should be and move us from where we had fun.

     Today was one of those days, when we are moved to where we should be, out of respect and love, from where we want to have fun. But today they are the same place.

     I stood a moment longer, reflecting on my life and the moments we spent together here at this very home, divided between the library and the green house. Time where I watched things grow and bloom, and fought the adversaries of bugs and spiders. Where he watched me grow and find answers.
After everyone left, I walked into the now disheveled green house and wept.  

THE END